This quote sticks out so much right now. I am praying I haven’t lost you. You mean more to me than I thought you would. To me, this all is worth it. Because you are worth it. I can’t imagine not having you in my life. You make me laugh. You make me smile. You open up to me. You listen to me. You care about me. You make me happy. I hope you realize tonight how much I care and that I don’t want this to end. I hope you don’t want this to end either. You are one of the best things that has happened to me. You are my serendipity. My happy accident. You came into my life by pure chance. But stuck around by choice.
Putting yourself out there can be scary. Letting people in on your darkest secrets can be scary. But hopefully when it is someone who truly cares about you, it won’t scare them away.
I’m so nervous that you’re going to run in the other direction now that you know part of me. I hope you don’t see it as baggage, like you view issues other girls have. You were very understanding of this so I hope that’s the true you. Accepting, not pushy, understanding, caring. I’m so afraid to lose something that isn’t even mine.
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Up until tonight, ive used tumblr as a way to find quotes and pictures, never as a way to write or vent. I have over 400 posts that ive “loved” and a few quotes i posted that i found outside of tumblr. But tonight, i need to write…
This past year was by far the biggest learning experience for me….
2 years ago, I wrote this. It’s funny how much life can change throughout that time. Yes, I finally did tell the boy how I felt. We remained friends. Nothing more. But because of this boy, and the previous one mentioned, I was finally able to see that I don’t deserve scum bags who control me and treat me disrespectfully. I learned how to stand up for myself and cut ties with those who only being me down.
Funny, I thought they both could have been the one.
Two years later and I am a much different person. I am stronger. I have love for myself. I have respect for myself. And I know EXACTLY what I want and don’t want in a partner. My future husband will be someone who has qualities of the previous men in my life. But he will be someone who doesn’t control me. Instead, he allows me to be my own person, respects me completely, and shows me that I deserve the best.
Maybe the new man right now is the one. I have no idea. But I do know that, just like in the past, if he doesn’t stick around, then he isn’t the one for me. But there will be a reason why he is in my life. I’ve said before that people could be the one, but this time I say it with confidence. He meets the qualifications. And for once, I look at him and can see his flaws. In the past I’ve ignored flaws. With him, I accept him. All of him. Flaws included. Because they help make him the amazing person that he is. The man that I want to continue getting to know. The man I want to continue talking to and spending time with. The man who could be the one.